"I was standing in our front yard on a frigid Nebraska day with my finger split to the tendon and bleeding on the snow. My brother and I were fighting and he accidentally slammed my finger in our steel front door, almost cutting it off. I felt alone, hurt, and abandoned. This was a monumental time in my life that I realized how much I despised all of the turmoil. Turmoil, turmoil, and more turmoil. I thought, how much turmoil and abandonment can one take? How was I going to fix it? As a profession, I am a pharmacist and in the business of helping others heal. Surely, I could fix the turmoil, abandonment, and loneliness. One day, amongst all of the studying and professionally looking for things to fill the aloneness, I realized I had not been studying the most important book of all time, the Bible. I had been introduced to Christ, but never truly surrendered. I started getting into God’s word, the gospel, the “Good News.” Although confused and feeling like I did not know what I was doing, I was guided. I came across Psalm 22 and realized the only one who had ever been truly alone and abandoned was Jesus, who died on the cross for us. It was never up to me to fix the problem, Jesus already had! In John 19:28-30, Jesus, just before he breathed his last breath, uttered the phrase “it is finished.” Sure, there is still turmoil and life is definitely not perfect, but we are never alone or forsaken, Deuteronomy 31:8. It is done through a love above all other and our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. My name is Rick and I surrender."
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