Jeremy

“My mom was a drug dealer and I had a really rough upbringing. I grew up very far away from God. I was an atheist. I would read and study the scriptures to prove Christians wrong. I was suicidal. I had the knife and I said to God ‘if You are who you even think You are, stop me.’ I heard the audible voice of God. He said ‘you are mine.’ I was terrified and I dropped the knife. God introduced Himself.  The suicidal thoughts came because my mom almost died. She had a seizure due to an overdose. She mixed a bunch of drugs and it was a big mess. I was angry at everything. My dad got custody after that event.  

My closest family member was a cousin and I didn’t know they became Christians while I was away from them. I would spend a night there on and off. It was like my escape from my dad. They said I could stay with them on weekends but I would have to go to church with them. I thought ‘I don’t care. I just want to hang out with my cousin.’ That summer they had a youth camp and I went with my cousin. I started experiencing miracles.  One night I just felt an overwhelming sense of ease wash over my body, head to toe. The next thing I remember I was on the floor, lying on my back. I had extreme stage fright as a kid.  On testimony night I was in line, going on the stage and I felt an electric shock and as soon as I touched the microphone all anxiety was gone.

God makes all for the good. Everybody desires truth. Just listen and be patient. Psalm 37:3-7 states: “Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.  Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.  Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him and He will do this:  He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn, your vindication like the noonday sun.  Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.”  Listening has changed my life. If you genuinely love God and if your faith is true, it is almost easy to delight in the Lord. If I am not feeling in love with God, I will put everything aside and fall in love with Him again.  My name is Jeremy, I’m human, and I surrender.”