Millie
- humansofsurrender
- 1 day ago
- 3 min read
“It was in my brokenness that I got to see the best of God. I thought the great were going to come help me out. I thought the ones with titles were going to speak for me. But it was the lowly who represented me. They fed me. The one who didn’t have food in her house made sure I was fed. It was the homeless who kept me company at my lowest. I can reach others through the pain. God turns that pain into something beautiful for His name’s sake.
I was born into a family that served in the church on the little island of Vieques, Puerto Rico. We were the perfect church family, but behind closed doors, we were very dysfunctional. I thank God that today He has restored that. There was even a divorce between my parents. God restored that before the passing of my father. I was baptized in the Holy Ghost at nine years old and served as president of the children’s ministry. That began a whole journey of experiences with God. However, it wasn’t until my reconciliation with the Lord in my thirties that I truly understood I couldn’t ride on the coattails of my parents’ faith. I had to encounter God and know Him for myself. I had to take a hard look at myself and recognize that everything I had done was self-made. I had to confront the religious spirit within me. I could quote the Word to you, but I wouldn’t give you a glass of water. I was too prideful. I could tell you how to live your life, but I would hide behind the busyness of ministry. I missed God the whole time. I needed to be honest with God. Thank God for His faithfulness, His mercy, and His perseverance. I’m grateful to be considered one of His special children.
It was a hard pill to swallow when it came to repentance. It keeps me humble. It keeps me focused. It keeps me aware that I am still a work in progress. It’s not about performance. It’s about loving God so deeply that His love overflows to others. I cannot express in words the joy that comes with that. Out of that joy, I feed others. Not too long ago, I learned that God truly rewards every tear. He is building character in us. “But He knows the way that I take;When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.” — Job 23:10
He constantly reminds me of what I’m doing, what I’m made for, how gifted I am, and how loved I am. It is all part of the forging of character so that when we go out into the world, we know how to stand on His Word. To be born again in Christ means dying to self. There has been a death and a resurrection, and it goes far beyond a heightened understanding of self-made God. Christ did it all at the cross. It is so powerful that the same blood still washes us today. “If you abide in My word, you are My disciples indeed. And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” — John 8:31-32 . I do what I do for the love of God and for the sake of His people coming to know Him. My name is Millie. I’m human, and I surrender.”
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